To follow in
Ali Jane Smith’s footsteps
# 9 GOODAFTERNOON
And now it is today. You emerge from behind what could
be seen as bad dreams.
(And you know many would understand this screen of
yours as a beautiful life).
Today is when you whisper in my ears telling how good
my hair smells. But this you, even though somebody, is no one or anyone: this doesn’t
count although felt as hitting it off.
Now today tries to stich outside and inside together
so as to unfold the screen and play the dreams.
Bad and beautiful are the borders beyond which now is
today.
Today is a day to consider a method in order to
measure wounds and pain when not suffered under torture.
Now is a period of time inside which people are
“suicided” and others “genocided”. It’s a period of time during which my heart
leaks out black blood to become red voice in my mouth pouring white words of
peace.
And now a door is blown open by winds in numerous
threads like undone nests. No possible rest: which is precisely the reason why
now and today expand till the coincidence of time between birth and death as it
is said to accept and conform to, whatever it costs you. It might scratch your
skin: memories that forgot to be neutral.
Today is a high tide day of storm: when land is
flooded and it’s no daylight and no night either. A dark now of elevated
waters. It might be a moment to reinvent one‘s self through trespassing. As if
bad and beautiful in this renewed now were lost in translation but woven with
waves for unseen braids to form a mat. And now sailing away today loses any
taste for autobiography.
It’s no self-surrender but rather existence. The
aftermaths of a lightening that stroke to a certain agony: a high quality of
tiredness. Exhaustion and a weight on the chest stealing your last breath. A quartering
allowing some suspension back and forth between life and death that produces an
alternating current: the power of today.
Now: a horizon as hard as a wall like a whitewashed bone
inside me. No flesh for today’s tale. No paraphrase and no quote either. Just a
ray of light for a basic beaming. This will make my day.
Afternoon
already…
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